January Goals

 

1. Start a budget for 2015:

Long story short the government doesn't support farmers so therefor farmers are now making way to little to survive on while the seed, equipment, chemicals, farm diesel, and other necessities to farm price go up the crop price goes way down. This year is going to be an extremely tight one and they only way that it wouldn't changing my spending is to go back to work. As I sat down and did the pros and cons to both I decided that I would only be working to support my overly spending habit. I would also miss out on all the things I get to enjoy as a stay at home mom would not be an option anymore I couldn't make every single school function, all the day dates with my farmer, the farm office stuff I help with. So I created a budget and yes its going to be a challenge but at a great cost.
I spend way to much on clothing, shoes, and jewelry. But yet I still have nothing to wear so what's the point of forking out so much on it if at the end of the day I stand there and look and think I have nothing to wear. I think I buy because I'm like oh that's cute but then I don't really love it therefor I will not get that much wear out of it. As I was looking for a way to get myself out of this habit I came across a website or blog that had an awesome idea. You put back 20.00 a week and you can either purchase something with that or save up each week to buy what you want. You can't go over what you don't have saved for. I thought how awesome. For the month of January I will only allow myself 20.00 each week to spend on my closet habit. To start off on a stick budget my plan is to only buy what we absolutely have to have and if I have leftover room I will allow myself to $20 a week and put the rest in savings. My kids are going to go into major shock but I think it will be a great way to welcome them to the real world. While making a budget and seeing all the crap we spend money on and how much it blew my mind. How have I been so blind at all the wasteful things we have been wasting our dollar on.
For a while I have been praying for balance and to let things slow down. Each days passes in a blink of an eye and I didn't even have a moment to stop and enjoy it. I have also been praying to be more like the Proverbs 31 wife. Little did I know he had this year in store for me.

 

2. Start each morning with a Daily Devotion:

I tend to pick up and put down my devotionals. When I'm busy I think I'll get back at it tomorrow and if I'm busy that day then it has created a pattern. When I start my morning off right by spending time with my father I find that my day always goes smoother. Here lately he has been pulling on my heart stings more than ever and I feel and hear him loud and clear. He wants me to stay connected with him constantly. I also would slim through the devotion when I did do them but I want to really get into them and take every word into account. I want to live out what I learn.  

 

3. Journaling:

At the end of each day I would love to take the time to write something about that day. Weather it be good or bad just a little something. I love to doodle and keep a memory of things I often find myself writing things in my notepad on my phone or a scrap piece of paper or in my bible at church another reason I need the journaling bible but I am on a budget and don't think that will happen this year I am thankful I have one and will work with what I got.

 

4. Make homemade Pizza:

I have had all the stuff that I bought to make homemade pizzas but never got around to it. And the truth is if I haven't made them and had the stuff on hand for ever a year why did I buy all the stuff that means I will not get use out of this. See I have a problem people. I am making it my mission to use this and not perfect it and place these into our food rotations. I think this will be a fun thing for us to do as a family.

 

5. Lean something new:

a new word meaning, a fun fact, a new bible verse, a new recipe, how to do something I've never done or knew how to, doesn't matter just as long as learn something new

6. More time with kids:
Last year was such I blur I hardly remember anything. I want to enjoy each and every moment with one of the most precious gifts the Lord has placed into my life. It saddens me to not be able to look back on last year and remember something awesome with my kids or that we made sure we spent at least 15/20minutes just spending quality time with each other without running to practices, doing homework, calling out test, signing papers, gripping about chores not being done, what do you want to eat, I want no distractions while spending time with them. In my Jesus Calling devotional this has stuck out the most thus far: Do not skimp on our time together, RESIST the clamor of tasks waiting to be done. You have chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away.
There are often times well to be truthful most of the time I am spending with my children my body is with them but my brain is on all of the things I need and should be doing and making lists in my head of what all I have to do but my goal is to be more like Mary and less like Martha. Luke 10:38-42

7. Get back into my workout routine:

 I went to New York in October and I haven't been back to the gym since. So after 3 months of being off I am starting back. I am wanting to do Couch25k Monday, Wednesday & Friday and go to body pump on Tuesday and Thursday. I need to get back into eating right also.

Last but not least my 12x30 challenge: Love Myself 

12x 30 Chasing my Extraordinary in My so-called chaos challenge



My sweet blogger friend Crystal @ Hall around Texas shared this amazing challenge and instantly I knew I had to join in. I hope many of you do too.

 

My failures rather than my success is what I focus on.


Sometimes perfection can be perfect hell.
I have severs OCD. I love routine, schedule, planning, list making and perfection.
I feel that when I have routine and lists and everything is going as planned I have peace and comfort and stability but the moment 1 things is out of place I let it turn my whole world upside down and effect not only myself but with my attitude and mood it then effects the people around me.
Example: I was depotting a new blush and the hubs thought he was going to help and while I was looking for the wire cutters to get it out he thought he could take a knife and pop it out and ended up cracking it. When I walked in and saw it I lost my Shiz-nitz not a little I mean a lot like bat-shit crazy loose it. I had a toddler tantrum melt down I even hate to admit this but I was in tears. I just got this blush yesterday and "My plan" was to depot it place it into my pallet check that off the list and move on to the next thing on my list. But because I cant check this of my list because its broke and I don't do broken makeup. Cracks, crumbs, pieces falling out everywhere no I clean up enough mess I don't need another one. So therefor since I can do what I had planned on doing I can't move on. I find that if things aren't perfect then I look at them as failures and in return it ruins the rest of my day or week depending on how long I allow myself to hold onto whatever it is.
Why? Why can't I just let it be and move on. Why do I have to be perfect when I no there is not a such thing? I get all kinds of frazzled when my plan doesn't go exactly the way it should. I have so much more important things to focus on other than routine, schedule and checking things off the list so why do I let my need for perfection ruin myself.



Conclusion:



I am going to love my self enough to "Let it be"





Instead of throwing the towel in I'm going to use it to wipe the sweat off.