My sweet blogger friend Crystal @ Hall around Texas shared this amazing challenge and instantly I knew I had to join in. I hope many of you do too.
My failures rather than my success is what I focus on.
Sometimes perfection can be perfect hell.
I have severs OCD. I love routine, schedule, planning, list making and perfection.
I feel that when I have routine and lists and everything is going as planned I have peace and comfort and stability but the moment 1 things is out of place I let it turn my whole world upside down and effect not only myself but with my attitude and mood it then effects the people around me.
Example: I was depotting a new blush and the hubs thought he was going to help and while I was looking for the wire cutters to get it out he thought he could take a knife and pop it out and ended up cracking it. When I walked in and saw it I lost my Shiz-nitz not a little I mean a lot like bat-shit crazy loose it. I had a toddler tantrum melt down I even hate to admit this but I was in tears. I just got this blush yesterday and "My plan" was to depot it place it into my pallet check that off the list and move on to the next thing on my list. But because I cant check this of my list because its broke and I don't do broken makeup. Cracks, crumbs, pieces falling out everywhere no I clean up enough mess I don't need another one. So therefor since I can do what I had planned on doing I can't move on. I find that if things aren't perfect then I look at them as failures and in return it ruins the rest of my day or week depending on how long I allow myself to hold onto whatever it is.
Why? Why can't I just let it be and move on. Why do I have to be perfect when I no there is not a such thing? I get all kinds of frazzled when my plan doesn't go exactly the way it should. I have so much more important things to focus on other than routine, schedule and checking things off the list so why do I let my need for perfection ruin myself.
Conclusion:
I am going to love my self enough to "Let it be"
Instead of throwing the towel in I'm going to use it to wipe the sweat off.
